falling in love backwards(kate)

right now we are getting ready to go through on one of the biggest and scariest parts.

here's what we have established.

1. We like each other
2. We know this is something worth pursuing

3. We care for each other past just being friends

4. Our hearts are connected

But, it isn't exactly what you think it is....
because we did it backwards.

Most people start out with the bubbly feelings and end with the insecurities.

For us though, we just let each other go hog wild. We know so much about each others insecurities because we would just spill or guts to each other daily. It was pretty cool though because now (outside of God) we care about each other so much and know each other so well, we are each others earthly security. This is good because this is a stage that some married couples don't ever reach. It makes me pretty excited because I don't feel like I have to worry to much. I feel secure.

Now we are going through the hard part,

but it's also the fun part & the messy part.

It's the the I want to fall in love with you part.

The part where foundation is crucial,

Where clinging to Christ is our only option.

The weird thing about me and Steven is we are not regularly attracted to each other.

I think he is cute of course and he thinks I look good hahahahaah

But he isn't my type, and I'm not his type.

Not at first glance anyway, I never thought I'd like him.

In fact, you can ask my sister...I swore I never would.

But there is something that brought us together that literally worked like a magnet to where it was no problem for us to share our hearts with each other.

I never felt like that before, with anyone. like ever.

As well as we know each other, I don't know him at all.

I know about everything he experienced that was hurtful as a child, and I know exactly when he needs a hug or needs encouragement. But I don't know a single thing (nor have I put much thought into it) about his earthly self, like what he thinks of certain things, or about his personality. I know that's sooooooo weird, but the reason it's like that is because we're falling in love completely backwards.